Kids are Resilient

Yeah, the talk went pretty well. Morgan was pretty upset, but was able to get back into whatever she was doing previously pretty quickly. Haley (and this is very Haley) needed to go off on her own for a little bit and process it. But she came around, and we ended up having a pretty good day.

I was going to go pack everyone up and go to church, but then I flaked. Plenty of excuses, not that I need one. Mostly though, I was just waiting for Kelly to call so she could FaceTime with the girls. They loved it so much yesterday, I felt like we had to be on it again. This is by far the longest Kelly’s been away from the kids, so a little connection is good.

On that note, Kelly may extend her stay through the funeral, meaning she’ll be gone until Friday. This sounds harrowing for me, but that’s pretty selfish, really. It’s only a few more days and I can handle holding down the fort a bit and catch up on work quickly thereafter.

So back to today, we didn’t do a ton, but made it up to Sundance to hang out for a bit. It was pretty cool up there, but not cold. It was good for the kids to run around a bit. We considered riding the lift, but the girls weren’t into it and it was fun just to hang out. Sundance Sundays are something of a family tradition, but it has actually been awhile.

Finally, thanks to my old pal Dr. Sandros for noting my incredible run of blogging form. I usually don’t post when I’m down, but I’ve actually been enjoying putting some thoughts together again. Maybe I’ll make it a habit. Don’t bet on it though.

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The Talk

So, today it happened. Kelly’s grandma passed on. 

Obviously, this is really hard and bad timing for her mom.

However, this post is going in a different direction…I’m really worked up about telling the kids. I know that sounds weird. My Haley is just so sensitive though. I could probably count the movies she has NOT cried at on one hand. And this is real life. She has a real relationship. And I’m worried about how she’ll handle it.

She’s a tough kid and she’ll be fine. I just hate that she has to go through it.

Not that it’ll be easy on Morgan, but Haley really struggles with death. Like even a spider or something. 

Anyway, lots of other emotions going on over here, but yeah, as odd as it sounds that’s keeping me up.

I almost forgot…

There I was fiddling between FB and Twitter. Yeah, Friday night rager!! Woo-hoo!! Anyway, I remembered I’m “supposed” to be posting. 

Not a horrible amount of items of note today.

We went out to dinner. My mom REALLY likes PF Chang’s. I do, too, for the record, but she probably takes it to a new level. They don’t have one near her in Sedona, so when she’s here, we try to go. I say try, because as often as not, we have failed. Once the wait was over two hours…not ideal with kids and another time it was Sunday, and yeah, Utah County, they were closed. I think there was another mishap, but I’m not remembering that one.

So, tonight we made it. We went at like 5:00 to beat the crowds (didn’t want another 2 hour waiting list) and it was real nice. As nice as having a 3 year old and a 1.5 year old surrounding you for a meal can be, probably. Our waiter was clearly on a mission to get us out of there. I mean, you usually get rushed through when you have a bunch of kids, but this took it to the next level. I think our food was ready before we walked in the door. That said, he was nice about it and I much prefer that to having four kids waiting all night. And it was good!!

Missing my Kelly though!!

Thursday

Well, today was a step in the right direction.

I stayed pretty close to home, so I could walk the kids to and from school. With my mom. Good times. It was pretty chilly and yeah, a good bit of new snow in the mountains. Seems really early for that, but I think it’s not really. Seems like we always get an early storm and then it’s dry and warm forever before winter really comes in earnest.

I am hoping for an early winter and an early spring. Is that too much to ask for? And a “normal” winter.

Anyway, I stuck around Utah County, but I think I still sold some stuff, so that’s a win-win. Or maybe even a win-win-win.

Managed to get all 4 kids bathed tonight. I’m pretty proud. Haley and Morg are pretty self-sufficient (Haley moreso), but the little ones are bit of work.

Not a lot to report at the moment, waiting for a call from my Kelly with an update.

I guess in the meantime, I’ll watch my pal Tyson on Survivor.  We don’t have real tv, so I’m always a day behind.

Sad face

A bit down today. 

I think just the weight of everything going on. I’ve been kinda just avoiding thinking about things, but then, you know, reality comes crashing through.

We had some mountain snow today with more coming tomorrow. I can’t get excited about it in September. Not that I can do anything about it, so I might as well enjoy it.

Anyway, I went out to the cross race tonight. It was a great course. Unfortunately, I burped a tubeless tire repeatedly. I didn’t know how much time was left, so I ended up pulling over on the last lap and trying to get some air in. This ended up taking forever, and I wound up putting a tube in one wheel. Everyone kept yelling at me just to run it in, but by that point I was pretty much just wanting to get air in the tire to ride home. At that point, I was in a really bad mood, so sorry I was not my usual jovial self.

Tomorrow’s another day and I’m going to kick myself in the ass to make the most of it.

Where’s mom?

So, Kelly flew out to Long Beach this morning to help her mom while she recovers from surgery. My mom has been in since Sunday to help while Kelly’s gone as I REALLY need to be working right now. We are very lucky to be able to make both of these scenarios come to fruition as this is a really busy time for me workwise.

I thought I’d try to post every day as Kelly really likes it. Usually I’m the one on the road and she’s at home. In fact, she’s never been away from the kids more than 1 night. 

It is weird here without her. I keep having to explain the situation to Piper. She keeps asking if mommy is picking up grandma. Rory is struggling too. The older girls are being super helpful so far.

Kelly’s grandma on her mom’s side also just had a really bad stroke. That’s about all I can say on that. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

One more thought from Vegas…

During the show, my facebook feed filled up with people taking pictures with known dopers. 

I don’t get it. I love my friends, but why you are still idolizing someone whose fame is based on lies, cheating and stealing is beyond me.

And no, I’m not bitter. I had great experiences racing my bike and I will have more great experiences racing my bike.

It’s just weird to me.

What happened in Vegas mostly sucked, but I’ll tell you about it anyway

So, yeah complete failure to my commitment to posting while on the road, but not without reason. I had a good show, business wise and it was definitely good to catch up with old friends, but I basically felt like a turd the entire time.

As mentioned, got a banging headache Sunday night and it basically never stopped. Lots of chills too. Which is weird in the desert. I knew something was wrong when I turned the heat on in my room. I’m sure my roomie thought I was nuts. I basically only left the hotel room to go to the cross race, which wasn’t as fun as it might have been otherwise.

By Thursday night, I was considering going to a doctor, but I didn’t want to do so in Vegas. I ended up leaving the show and going straight to bed that night. Yes, at 6:00. I woke up around 8:00 and made myself eat something. I hadn’t eaten all day and since we were fasting the next day, I figured I should have something in my guts. Went back to bed after that and didn’t wake up until after 7 the next morning, but I felt normal again!

Went and finished off my last day at the show and got on the road around 4:00. Broke the fast with a Snickers and a Coke as I needed a little something to get me to St. George.

Aways into the drive, Kelly called me and said the surgery had gone well. Definitely a relief as that was weighing heavily on all of us this week. Still a long road ahead, but that’s a big step in the right direction.

As strange as this sounds, I do (normally) enjoy my time in Vegas and I couldn’t help feeling like I was pretty well robbed of it this year. So it goes… I got home a little before 11:00 that night, still feeling good. Nothing like coming home to my girls!!

Dirt demo, fine dining, the phone charger incident, and Pepsi?

Today I thought I could get out to dirt demo and get a little mountain ride of my own in before it got too busy, but by the time I got out there it was crazy busy. I had to leave around lunch, so I thought it would be bad form to kit up and bail, so I ended up working. Totes lame, right?? 

After that it was a series of 3 meetings with very little break between. I was kinda stuck in Mandalay Bay between meetings. There is no fast food there. Normally I might applaud them for this, but I hadn’t had lunch and it was awhile until the dinner meeting and I just needed a little something. And there all fancy pants expensive place. And time was short. And…long story not so short, I got a Snickers and a Coke Pepsi for $6.

Yes, the correction for Pepsi was crucial to the story.

So, last meeting was the dinner meeting. I left my phone charger for the hotel room at home, so I left it plugged in in the car, figuring I shouldn’t need it for a meeting. The meeting went loooong. I’d love to tell you that story, but I can’t. Anyway, I got out and had a message from Kelly and she was f-l-i-p-p-i-n-g. Had to call and let her know I’s okay. It’s sweet that she worries about me. We’d talked earlier, but I should have kept my phone around to at least shoot her a message.

Show starts tomorrow!! Wish me luck…

 

The Mondays

Had a rough night last night. No, not in the traditional Vegas way. I think I just let myself get super dehydrated over the course of the day. Spent the entire night with my head throbbing and basically didn’t get out of bed until 9:30, which NEVER happens. Too bad I couldn’t enjoy it. Anyway, I downed a giant Gatorade once I finally left and immediately started feeling better. All the same, I’ve hardly eaten today, which is abnormal. 

Once I finally kickstarted myself, I headed out to dirt demo. This is basically a chance to test everyone’s products. It is also an extraordinarily hot place to hang out all day. I didn’t have much to do though, so I was mostly just hanging out and visiting old friends. And trying to rehydrate. When it’s over 100, that means drinking constantly.

Tonight should be a typical night in Vegas, hookers and cocaine. No, I’ll probably wander the strip aimlessly for awhile. A week is a bit much, but I do enjoy my time here. It’s just so vastly different than what I’m used to. Tomorrow things get busy…Dirt demo, followed by 3 meetings and the show hasn’t even started yet.